Basically, I'm afraid. I'm afraid if I write about it too much or talk about it too much that it'll be taken away from me. I feel so shameful for thinking this and even more for writing it down. I AM blissfully happy but I'm terrified about it.
I am writing now in an attempt to get past this fear. . .
I met with an OB. Things are going good. We had an ultrasound on the 25th and baby B is measuring right on schedule. Due date is 12/06/2014 :-)
As for insurance coverage... We don't qualify for Medicaid as we make above poverty level. So for the first two months of prenatal care we will be paying out of pocket. This is a big burden on us but we know we will get through it. I am thankful that my insurance begins June 1st. I am thankful to have coverage for most of the pregnancy :-)
I am also looking forward to changing OBs. While I appreciate the care I am getting now. I hate the office. I only get to see midwives. Never an actual doctor. This miracle needs a doctor! Baby B deserves a doctor! June cannot come quick enough.
I'm 9 weeks today... No bump pictures yet. I'm not there yet...mentally. I think I'm starting to show or it could be bloat. Lol
Bloggie World have a good Saturday and count your blessings :-)
My birthday is 12/11! Maybe you will deliver then! ;-) Congrats .... I will keep you in my thoughts!
ReplyDeleteHeather, I can relate to this so much. I'm a week behind you, and while I've found myself happily dreaming of what is to come, I'm also scared out of my mind. I too don't want to get ahead of myself, or jinx myself. I guess it comes with the territory of going through what we have.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you will only be uninsured for a couple short months! And so very happy for you! Will be wishing you all great things with this pregnancy.
I feel/felt the same way. When we started telling people I immediately felt nervous. Like I had crossed the line and this baby was going to be taken from me. I'm starting to feel better. The more I see this baby. The more I feel at ease. I don't think it will ever be worry free and I don't think I will ever be confident but I'm getting there. I'm almost 14 weeks now and starting to show. That helps too. Big hugs and good thoughts. Xoxo
ReplyDeleteWishing you all the best! I'm sorry you will be paying out of pocket for while. That's frustrating.
ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear an update and that you are doing well :)
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