Monday, April 8, 2013

I Should B used to this by now

Well it is technically CD 3. AF has hit me so hard that I am nauseous. I also have severe backache and cramps. I normally only cramp and have backaches on my right side but this cycle it is on both sides. Being that I have Endo my AF cramps can be pretty bad. I have prescribed pain killers for this exact reason. I hate taking them though. I chalk this current pain version of AF up to metformin as it is the only new thing. In essence this means the metformin is working but golly gee I forgot how bad AF can be with it.

I have been up and down all night in pain. I have had MAYBE 1.5 combined hours of sleep. I have taken pain meds. I have used the heating pad. I even resorted to a very hot bath at 4 am. Pretty much anything to help the pain. While these things all help lessen the pain, nothing makes it go away.
It is moments like this that I remind myself (almost in a chant) that all this will be worth it in the end. I am thankful DH is a fairly heavy sleeper and I have not kept him awake. I have class today at 2pm but I emailed my prof. at 3am explaining I would not be able to attend. I hate missing class but driving on such little sleep is unsafe.

I know this post has been all over the place but it is difficult to concentrate while in so much pain.

I am blogging now because it is better than yelling/crying/screaming about it.

Sorry if it is TMI. But just for reference for those without Endometriosis, I have read that Endo pains can be as painful as childbirth. I have no point of reference for the childbirth pain level but I can tell you that AF with Endo. pains is this most painful thing I have experienced to date. I have had a ceiling collapse on me and limbs broken and it was not this bad. Mainly pain medication could give the illusion that the pain was bearable in those situations. However, nothing can do this for my Endo. pains. At one point I was on a double dose of Vicodin and taking muscle relaxers (doc prescribed both) and all it did was make me totally out of it. The pain was still there albeit slightly bearable. I immediately told the dr that if I'm still going to feel it then what is the point of the meds. So now I take the pain medicines on very rare occasions. For the amount of pain I am experiencing I would think AF would be super heavy. While I am having to change super plus tampons every two hours, it is still not the heaviest flow I've had (sorry TMI again).
As I type this my eyelids are drooping and the pain meds are kicking in. I will try and sleep some before the pain wakes me up again.

Sorry for the random ramblings.

Hope your week is well.


  1. The nice thing about the blogging world is that I found there really is no such thing as TMI, so share away! It's also nice to have a place to vent when we are so incredibly frustrated and can't sleep in the middle of the night. I'm sorry you are in so much endo pain. Hopefully you'll be able to get some rest today and it will be over soon.

    1. Also I can blog at anytime and not worry about waking anyone up! I got another two hours of sleep before waking up in pain. I want to stay in bed with my heating pad. AND I might just do it! Lol

  2. I hope you are feeling better soon ((HUGS))

    1. Thank you. You know you are a hot mess when virtual hugs make you cry... Thanks for the hugs :-)

  3. Boo! I hate AF symptoms! I hope you feel better soon! I am right behind you! Sounds like we can be cycle buddies. There are lots of peeps in or starting active cycles this month! YAY! Lets hope for some BFPs! And Amber is right, there is no such thing as TMI in the blogging or IF world! Share away! Chnaces are someone else feels the same! Hugs!