Wednesday, September 18, 2013
I Should B regrouping
Today is CD3. That's right, another failed cycle.
We have decided to take an extended break from TI and medicated cycles. I am okay 90% of the time. I know we need the break. This of course does not mean I will stop temping most mornings or taking my metformin (at a lower dosage). The metformin helps me with my IR which affects many aspects of my body.
In these following months our focus will shift to getting healthier. I even signed up for another 5k. It is the Zombie 5k :-) yep I'm gonna run from zombies! I hope I survive. I am going to get back on the weight watchers wagon. Losing any amount of weight will benefit me in many ways. Hey if I can ovulate and possibly get pregnant then that's ok too.
I have been using our TI, possible pregnancies, and medications as excuses. I stopped exercising because the medicine was having adverse effects. I used the idea that a pregnancy could be just around the corner so I didn't sign up for runs or plan things too far in advance. I stopped caffeine. I stopped drinking.
I basically let TTC control me and put parts of my life on hold.
It did not even hit me that I was doing this until I was so excited to sign up to run from zombies. There is no way I would have done that a week ago. The run is in November and I would not have wanted to spend the money and not be able to participate. Now I will sign up for things. I will buy new clothes (hopefully smaller) without worrying that they may not fit in a few months and just put them back.
I put too much into TTC and lost parts of myself along the way.
This next chapter will be about finding me again and remembering how that is important to me.
As a counselor I know what a person should and should not do. I know what their actions mean and don't mean. However, I have never been good at analyzing myself. I will take a step back and figure it out.
This is just another chapter in our journey to getting our happy ending.
I don't know what I'll write about on my blog but I will write. Please stick with me as I figure out this thing called life.
Have a good day Bloggie world and do something today that makes you smile :-)
Posted by Heather S. @ I Should B ... at 4:15 PM