tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-82601572766516146202024-03-05T14:49:22.762-05:00I should B ...This is a blog about things I should be doing/eating/reading/crafting/learning or not doing. It is a sporadic insight into my mind and life. I can guarantee it WILL be random. It will touch on serious subjects that could include things such as my struggle with PCOS and Endometriosis or my college career. However,more often than not I will discuss the less serious subjects that could include my cats varying sleeping positions to why some people just can't drive.Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.comBlogger79125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-43751239773639654712022-08-13T14:37:00.002-04:002022-08-13T14:37:23.667-04:00I Should B Used to This I Should B Used to This…I should be used to how life continues to throw us curveballs and challenges J is truly a miracle. After years of fertility treatments during a break to save money for IUI/IVF we were lucky to get pregnant naturally with him. The pregnancy was hard many times went to hospital for various things either for me or him. He was born at 39.5 weeks at almost 11 poundsHeather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-83280869460922028622022-06-14T02:32:00.000-04:002022-06-14T02:32:02.424-04:00I Should B RunningBloggie World, do you run? For this question I mean both literally and figuratively. This will probably not come as a complete shock to you, but I’m a runner. I run away from facing hard truths. I run towards the familiar. I run away from change. I run towards anything I can to keep me distracted. I ran. I ran in 2019. Mentally it started the day my mom died. As my world spiraled into the Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-88282270151734903892022-06-14T02:05:00.000-04:002022-06-14T02:05:04.112-04:00I Should B HealingBloggie World, I have something I need to admit to you. I forgot. I gave up. I got carried away with life and parenting and grief and more emotions and experiences than I can write about right now. I forgot to come check in to this space and with you. With social media transformation through the years I stopped reaching for this blog and instead would paint a picture to the social media world Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-88114981590337852362017-01-30T14:53:00.001-05:002017-01-30T14:53:39.815-05:00I Should B giving backI was trying to define a purpose for my blogging space now that Jack is 2 years old. I took time and have decided I will blog when my heart needs it about whatever the topic may be. It may be months, weeks, days or years between each posting, but I will continue to post.
When I was a child we needed to live in a type of shelter due to means beyond our control. We resided there for over a year, Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-62237305305458833322016-11-20T03:00:00.001-05:002016-11-20T13:13:04.255-05:00I Should B GrievingIt has been over a year since I last blogged. Blogging started as a place to share my feelings. A type of journal and right now that is what I need. I need to share my feelings and thoughts in a safe place. A place without judgement.
Do you have different types of best friends? I do. I have my guy best friend who is great but not someone I go to discuss the latest tampon fad. I have my longtime Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-40270309094730574792015-07-04T09:03:00.001-04:002015-07-04T09:03:51.170-04:00I Should B sharing our nursing journeyI guess I'm feeling nostalgic or something. Blog posts are flying out of me. I know J will be waking up soon so this will be the last one for today. I don't know when the next one will be bit could be days, weeks or months. But, there will be more :-)Okay so as I mentioned before an LC never showed me how to nurse J. I asked a NICU nurse and she helped me figure it out. I could only do what is Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-2976824373583085152015-07-04T08:29:00.001-04:002015-07-04T08:29:23.200-04:00I Should B sharing the hospital stayWhile in the hospital I wanted J to spend as little time as possible alone. Al was with him as much as possible. I will admit that I am sad that I don't have those first moments as a family pictures from the hospital. You know the ones I am talking about where the mom dad and baby squish their faces together just after birth as their first family photo. Yeah we have nothing. We don't have any Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-7632755491424174782015-07-04T07:53:00.001-04:002015-07-04T07:53:42.947-04:00I Should B sharing a birthing storyI know, I know, I haven't blogged in months. Life with a baby is exhausting and to be honest if I am not at work or with J then I am asleep. I don't want to miss any more than I already do while working. Blogging just hasn't fit in yet. #sorrynotsorryMy handsome man is 7 months old. I was just reading a birth story on another blog and I realized I never wrote mine out. I am writing this not only Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-40284149338682727232015-02-15T10:43:00.001-05:002015-02-15T10:43:20.274-05:00I Should B Providing An UpdateBloggie world, I apologize for being MIA but I hope you can understand. I have been soaking up as much time with my little guy as I could before going back to work. Here is an update. Handsome was discharged from the NICU 5 hours after I was discharged from the hospital with a clean bill of health. Since being released he has had a few bumps in the road and we are still climbing Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-14717258944185431582014-12-02T12:07:00.001-05:002015-02-15T10:24:55.243-05:00I Should B holding on and never letting go.I fully intend to hold on, but I will let go...when he is 30...maybe. :-)Here is our big guy. Born 12/01/2014 weighing 10lbs 12oz and 21.5 inches long. He is awesome and I just couldn't love him more! He is spending some time in the NICU and hopefully will be discharged from the hospital right along with me tomorrow. Bloggie world I love my son. Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-57752560638464135042014-11-15T19:16:00.001-05:002014-11-15T19:16:15.052-05:00I Should B readyIt's been awhile. Sorry about that. My sister is recovering well. My mother had her knee replacement surgery yesterday and is in recovery. I am 37 weeks pregnant today and am REALLY feeling it. I feel guilty complaining but gosh I am ready to not be pregnant anymore. My boy is already measuring just past 40 weeks. I lovingly refer to him as my Chunka Monk (Chunky Monkey). Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-15152086293652132632014-09-30T11:50:00.001-04:002014-09-30T11:50:34.267-04:00I Should B jumping for joyHer surgery was a success!! I would be jumping for joy but being 30weeks along might make that difficult. She is still at the hospital recovering but the doctors are hopeful for a full recovery. Oh and she can walk! No paralysis:-)Admittedly all this stress has not been well for me and the baby. I was experiencing severe anxiety and panic attacks from being overwhelmed. I am now onHeather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-7524035687483760692014-09-16T21:52:00.001-04:002014-09-16T21:52:11.156-04:00I Should B less angryOkay so things have not gotten better. My sister was admitted to the hospital on Saturday and is scheduled for open chest (to avoid spinal area and limit chances if paralysis) surgery on Thursday. This is not how things were supposed to happen. She was supposed to start radiation treatment this coming week. Luckily she told her children on Friday so they were not in total shock.&Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-55516862667590171662014-09-09T18:37:00.001-04:002014-09-09T18:37:45.351-04:00I Should B hoping the odds are ever in our favorI haven't blogged. Blogging just hasn't been something that has been in the forefront of my mind. I apologize for this but I know you all can understand. I started this blog to help me deal with a crappy situation and share my feelings and emotions in a safe place. Today I blog to get all my emotions out about a crappy situation that I am trying to not overwhelm and drown me. Before I Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-17722277997201345822014-06-22T00:40:00.001-04:002014-06-22T00:40:27.906-04:00I Should B lowering my pulseWell, a lot as happened since my last post. Which is why this is a long post. As of right now I am 16w1d. I mention in the beginning of the pregnancy that I did not have insurance. As of 14w the insurance began from my employer. I was so excited because then I could switch doctor's offices. That did not go as planned. I was denied entry into two different offices because I Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-31323830907673817072014-05-25T06:21:00.001-04:002014-05-25T06:21:02.965-04:00I Should B moving right alongHello there! Long time no see. It is clearly all my fault but I hope you will forgive me. I am finally starting to embrace this pregnancy. We have made it past the 12 week mark and announced on social media (huge step). I am happy to say things are progressing nicely with our little B. I have a feeling B might be a boy solely based on the amount of gas I have! I'm either Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-56275085466257631482014-05-03T11:15:00.001-04:002014-05-03T11:15:09.975-04:00I Should B counting my blessingsHey there. I know it has been awhile and I apologize for that. I'm having trouble with writing about the pregnancy. Basically, I'm afraid. I'm afraid if I write about it too much or talk about it too much that it'll be taken away from me. I feel so shameful for thinking this and even more for writing it down. I AM blissfully happy but I'm terrified about it. I am writing now in anHeather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-13265878963897311142014-04-05T08:02:00.001-04:002014-04-07T02:02:41.903-04:00I Should B ProcessingProcessing is EXACTLY what I am doing.
I am super excited about my number doubling. I worry that I'm too excited and that I am setting myself up for dissappointment. IF brain is always there doubting things. IF STINKS!. I want to shout to the world that I have my miracle on the way but instead I don't. For those that may not know, this is not my first pregnancy. My first was in 2010 and I was Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-85653151094609588132014-04-04T18:33:00.001-04:002014-04-04T18:33:30.400-04:00I Should B sharing resultsBeta #1= 121 Beta #2= 285Doubling time of 38.84I'll update more later. Trying to let it sink in a little. Have a good day Bloggie World. Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-30159683209170149732014-04-01T06:07:00.001-04:002014-04-01T06:07:28.889-04:00I Should B PatientWell not having insurance is the pits. I never in a million years thought I'd be a pregnant person without insurance. When I was hired onto my new position at work the 90 day wait did not seem bad. We planned to vist the RE in June, when my insurance starts, to discuss our next option in TTC maybe even schedule an IUI. We never thought to use protection during this time because multiple cycles Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-90209404852597089522014-03-30T09:44:00.001-04:002014-03-30T09:44:44.529-04:00I Should B in shockYesterday was a hard day at work. We had a very aggressive patient that was breaking things and hurting themselves. For times like these we as a team do a "take down". This is where we use training to prevent the individual from harming themselves or others. It can get quite physical. Well anyways I was one of the trained people on duty that assisted. After the individual was calm we were able toHeather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-71572917872773734002014-03-15T03:04:00.001-04:002014-03-15T03:04:12.554-04:00I Should B Smacking Someone Up Side Their HeadOkay, seriously, the title says it all.
I am not a violent person and I do not plan on resorting to violence any time soon.
I work in the mental health field. We are taught to know our "triggers" which is what could cause us to lose our perspective or theraputic train of thought. I have mentioned in my blog before about this. My "trigger" is pregnant women intentionally harming themselves or Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-41206167001300375472014-03-14T07:30:00.002-04:002014-03-14T07:30:29.881-04:00I Should B CopingSo, like many posts before this one, this post is about my emotions and infertility.
I have stated many times that IF is something to grieve over. We grieve over what could have been, finances, timing, friendships, loss and so much more. Each person deals with grief differently.
On most days, I am in the acceptance part of grief. I resort to humor to try to cover any other stages.
Just a few Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-37722690171152684962014-02-21T04:30:00.000-05:002014-02-21T04:30:44.447-05:00I Should B InsuredSo, I realize I just posted something, but that was mostly about my sister. Plus, I am trying to keep busy to stay awake.
I am currently on day 20 of my new full-time position at work. The first day of the month after my 90 days I will have medical insurance !!!
No, you did not read that incorrectly.
I WILL HAVE MEDICAL INSURANCE
whoop, whoop
I am just a little excited about it.
My mainHeather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8260157276651614620.post-9889184271268467422014-02-21T04:10:00.001-05:002014-02-21T04:10:22.151-05:00I Should B AsleepAs the title states I should be asleep. Not because it is 0355 in the morning but because I'm so exhausted I am struggling to keep upright. Being that I am at work it is extremely difficult to perform the task needed for me.
Ugh
I bet you are curious as to why I am so tired.
Care to take a guess?
FYI. It is not because of anything fun or IF related.
Give up?
ok, I'll tell you.
It is my Heather S. @ I Should B ...http://www.blogger.com/profile/07169449468601102414noreply@blogger.com2