Friday, April 19, 2013

I Should B glad

So us infertiles deal with a lot of emotions when someone posts they are pregnant. The emotions can range from anger, sadness, jealously, despair, or a whole bunch of others combined. As an infertile I do have those range of emotions when someone announces a pregnancy. However, I have these feelings also when people share they have ovulated. Ovulation for me has not been easy these last few months. It actually hasn't happened at all. This is my first cycle on Metformin and I'm spotting dark brown. I am on CD 14 and no ovulation. My cycles are typically 35-38 days.

I guess my main upset right now is I would like to be able to at least be in the running (let's face it, it's a race) to get pregnant.

I am in a funk, my body is in a funk, and my emotions are up and down. My DH is being supportive as much as possible but he is confused too. It's not fair that its my body and I can't do anything to help explain it to him. Yep this funk is annoying. I know my time will come , but I wish I could have a countdown ticker so I know how much longer I have to wait to have my O day. I know the funk will also pass but for now I'm stuck. It probably does not help my funk that I'm in finals crunch at school.

I cannot seem to get this funk off me. I tried to clear my head by reading and the funk just read with me. I tried to go for a relaxing swim and the funk came for a swim too. I even went to paint pottery and low and behold the funk was painting with me. Even as I write this the funk has joined in.

Next cycle I pray will have an O day and be lacking this funk.

This post really has no purpose except for me to put my funk in words. I just saw that funk is a genre of music. That is not what type of funk I'm in.

Have a good day bloggie buddies and I hope my funk didn't get on you. Try Lysol it might help. I'm all out of it so I can't say it will or won't help. It can't hurt.


  1. Boo! I never thought about the hurt people feel when they cant even ovulate; so thank you for bringing that to light for me. I am sorry that you are in a funk and I really hope that you are relieved from it soon!

    1. Thanks. I never thought I'd be in this position and type of mind frame either. But I'm here. Just as I don't want people to shield me from their pregnancies, I don't want to be shielded from ovulation announcements. This is just how I feel now. Who knows what tomorrow will bring

  2. That has to be hard, not ovulating. It sucks when all you want to do is join in the game along with everyone else. I get your funk. I'm sorry you are experiencing so much funkiness. Hopefully funky town will leave you soon!

    1. Thanks it did:-) I read your comment and immediately the funky town song was in my head :-)