I Should B used to this by now

Well it is technically CD 3. AF has hit me so hard that I am nauseous. I also have severe backache and cramps. I normally only cramp and have backaches on my right side but this cycle it is on both sides. Being that I have Endo my AF cramps can be pretty bad. I have prescribed pain killers for this exact reason. I hate taking them though. I chalk this current pain version of AF up to metformin as it is the only new thing. In essence this means the metformin is working but golly gee I forgot how bad AF can be with it.

I have been up and down all night in pain. I have had MAYBE 1.5 combined hours of sleep. I have taken pain meds. I have used the heating pad. I even resorted to a very hot bath at 4 am. Pretty much anything to help the pain. While these things all help lessen the pain, nothing makes it go away.
It is moments like this that I remind myself (almost in a chant) that all this will be worth it in the end. I am thankful DH is a fairly heavy sleeper and I have not kept him awake. I have class today at 2pm but I emailed my prof. at 3am explaining I would not be able to attend. I hate missing class but driving on such little sleep is unsafe.

I know this post has been all over the place but it is difficult to concentrate while in so much pain.

I am blogging now because it is better than yelling/crying/screaming about it.

Sorry if it is TMI. But just for reference for those without Endometriosis, I have read that Endo pains can be as painful as childbirth. I have no point of reference for the childbirth pain level but I can tell you that AF with Endo. pains is this most painful thing I have experienced to date. I have had a ceiling collapse on me and limbs broken and it was not this bad. Mainly pain medication could give the illusion that the pain was bearable in those situations. However, nothing can do this for my Endo. pains. At one point I was on a double dose of Vicodin and taking muscle relaxers (doc prescribed both) and all it did was make me totally out of it. The pain was still there albeit slightly bearable. I immediately told the dr that if I'm still going to feel it then what is the point of the meds. So now I take the pain medicines on very rare occasions. For the amount of pain I am experiencing I would think AF would be super heavy. While I am having to change super plus tampons every two hours, it is still not the heaviest flow I've had (sorry TMI again).
As I type this my eyelids are drooping and the pain meds are kicking in. I will try and sleep some before the pain wakes me up again.

Sorry for the random ramblings.

Hope your week is well.

I Should B Random Today

So, many thoughts are running through my head. I will write about them in no particular order. They may or may not make sense to you. Please feel free to ask for clarifications.

WARNING: This is a long post.

First up, traffic.

It took me two hours to get home from school today. TWO HOURS!! Ugh I cannot stand being in my car that long. The stop and go traffic is annoying. People just can not seem to drive in Florida! I may or may not be one of these people depending on the day.

Today was not one of those days.

On days like today I feel like I am surrounded by student drivers out alone in the car for the first time. The odds of this occurring are like three billion to one , but that is still how I feel. I mean clearly the route people take home is not new to them all. However,more than half of the drivers chose to wait till the last minute to change lanes before their exit/turn without using their turn signals! I mean what is up with that?!?!

Traffic rant is now over.

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Next up, Metformin

So, as of two days ago I am taking Metformin (250mg gradually increasing to 1000mg). The goal is to have me ovulate to result in regular periods as I do not want to take BC. DH and I are open to a BFP. I have recently been having a lot of cramping without periods which is an Endo. thing. I need to have regular visits from AF to help keep the Endo. pain down. Mind you this will not elevate the pain but hopefully it will lessen the pain. I did not get the Metformin from an RE so my levels are not being monitored for ovulation. I will however be tracking my ovulation (I hope) with the CB monitor and BBT. If I ovulate successfully and do not experience any other complications then DH and I will be actively trying (more so then now). I will only be on the Metformin till June as that is when my prescription will run out and everything will be reassessed then. Clearly we would like a BFP but mainly we want my body to regulate. So, I will be adding many more blog posts in relation to fertility in the next few months.

Consider this your warning :-)

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Next on the list, Soy Isoflavones

I recently read that Soy is similar to Clomid. I discussed with DH about taking this in May and June to aid us in getting a BFP and he is on board :-) this of course will all depend on if the Metformin works.

I am still in the research mode of Soy Iso.

Here is where I started my research: http://fertility-challenged.blogspot.com/2008/07/soy-isoflavones-natural-clomid.html

It says many women have had success on Soy. The fact that I can get it at Walmart for under ten bucks is highly appealing. I worry about the chances of birth defects, miscarriage, and chances of multiples<-- this one is more of a DH concern.

Does anybody have any other reading suggestions? Or comments/thoughts about Soy Iso?

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Next up, our cats

We have three cats. I had two before we married, a girl (Hiro) and a boy (Duke). DH had a boy (Vic). All three are rescue cats. My two are declawed,his is not. Every other day we give them wet food and every other day they fight. I am talking alley cat fighting here! So the fighting leads to a delay in receiving wet food(they always have dry food). I just do not understand why they do this! I mean they are only going to hurt themselves and I fear one day they actually WILL hurt each other.

They make no sense but I love them still.

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Finally, Girl Meets World

Have you seen there is going to be a show on disney that is a spin off of Boy Meets World?!?

I am excited about it and you should be too!

Okay that completes my randomness for today.

Till next time bloggie world :-)