I Should B heartbroken

I am heartbroken. 

Today is the end of our TWW. 

We are not pregnant. 

:'-(

This was our second TI with Clomid. I thought for sure this was our time (no clue why). 

Today we are meeting up with my mom for her birthday. I so wanted to be able to give her the kind of birthday present you cannot find on the shelf at a store. 

My heart is breaking not only because this was a failed cycle but because my mom won't know the joy of finding out today. She is so supportive with us during our struggles and I just wanted to show her it paid off. 

I have tears running down my face and I'm all blotchy. I totally look the part to celebrate a birthday... Umm not really. 

All I want to do is stay in bed and cry my eyes out. 

Today sucks

IF sucks

BFN suck

AF sucks the most

I hope someone in the Bloggie world is having a better day than mine...